Sometimes I really love the guitar, other times I hate it. Lately, I feel like I’m in a rut. I’ve long had issues with rhythm and I don’t think I’ll ever get it right. I have this tendency to speed things up.
Today I was playing, and I was tempted to put my guitars up on Ebay and walk away from this lifetime hobby of mine for good. I’ve been playing for years, yet I’ve never had the enjoyment of playing in a band. So, if I am just an audience of myself, what is the point?
I’ve had so many disappointments over the years. So many “well, sorry, you’re not what we’re looking for” type situations. I used to delusion myself into thinking that they were wrong, but now I realize, that I’m just not that good. So it only took me like 15 years, but I guess I’m just not meant to be a musician.